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hahahaa I haven't use this site in a while. I have been using Tumblr. I might start this one up again, out all my blog sites i like this one.
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"I need someone to tell me"
I dont know what to do with myself.
i feel like i am losing him.
i dont know if it is me or not. i have never had anyone move away from me and still love me as though it was the first time we fell in love. i have to be in the is 100%. i love him to death and back. he knows this and forever will.
i need to stop my mind from wondering, i have to stop believing the lies it thinks of.
i hope ill get over this. i dont want to stop loving someone as wonderful as him.
i know one will ever treat me with such beauty.
Please be there for me, to tell me it is going to be ok.
Someone to catch me when a I fall.
Hold me tight when i am losing my own war.
My so-called Friends just push me aside, tell me to get over myself.
They dont like to deal with me.
I am sorry for being emotional.
Sorry for hurting.
But i am not.
I am this way because i love this person so much that it takes all my strength.
Sometimes i cant do everything myself.
We all need someone to lean on at times.
He is not here to fight my fears
Wipe away my tears.
Hold me tight so he doesnt lose me.
Tell me it is ok with his kisses.
I get no confront from my rents.
They dont understand why i am like this.
[when do parents understand]
Why i love him so much.
His has new friends.
Girls
What comes to mind is horrible.
I am too far to touch him
No where close to protect him.
This is were my mind takes over.
Tells me the evilest of lies.
Tear every inch of me down,
Destroying me.
The things they could be doing
Please dont get my wrong, i trust him with my life.
it is not him i am worried about.
Them
i cant deal with.
My mind is my enemy when it comes to things to happen.
I welcome it, knowing i am losing.
Where i push everything away.
where i feel the losing of him.
DAMN IT
I NEED SOMEONE!!!
Please Help me
I am losing myself.
Losing the one person that means the world to me.
....But no one can help me.
i have to deal with it by myself.
thats what i have been told.
No one with care.
Please tell me differnt.
Show me someone does care
what happens to me.
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so he asked he scariest thing today
'question, would you ever think that we needed a break from each other?'
i swear i almost shit my pants.
my heart felt like it jumped into my stomach.
but we are ok
just a question....nothing more.
he was a little freaked out about something i told him about an exbf.
me and the ex where going through some stupid shit.
and he was an ass about everything.
so i told him what really happened, and me.....being me when stupid and immature
was all like 'maybe if we take a break we'll be ok'
DUMBEST
thing i ever thought of.
He broke up with me for a 14 year old
ended up in jail twice, she pressed rape on him.
and of course him being 18....the word Pedophile followed him.
so life is ok....my amazing sister is coming up in 3 days! so there is something to get excited about!
only I have to clean the whole house -_-
damn rents =/
They are all busy with other things.....grrr...
and now i have to do the damn dishes -_-
there are so many of them wahhhhhhhh
'question, would you ever think that we needed a break from each other?'
i swear i almost shit my pants.
my heart felt like it jumped into my stomach.
but we are ok
just a question....nothing more.
he was a little freaked out about something i told him about an exbf.
me and the ex where going through some stupid shit.
and he was an ass about everything.
so i told him what really happened, and me.....being me when stupid and immature
was all like 'maybe if we take a break we'll be ok'
DUMBEST
thing i ever thought of.
He broke up with me for a 14 year old
ended up in jail twice, she pressed rape on him.
and of course him being 18....the word Pedophile followed him.
so life is ok....my amazing sister is coming up in 3 days! so there is something to get excited about!
only I have to clean the whole house -_-
damn rents =/
They are all busy with other things.....grrr...
and now i have to do the damn dishes -_-
there are so many of them wahhhhhhhh
so here is a really shitty part of my life.
RENTS
they drive me nuts. my bf's rents....oh ps....
[Rents=Parents, for those of you who cant put two and two together!]
Anyway, My bf needs to move out of his house, his rents beat and yell at him like no tomorrow. at first my rents said they dont have a problem with it, now of course my mom is a bitch and is like no.
i want to kill something so bad, i am hurt beyond hurt.
my mother said she doesn't trust me. i wouldn't be talking mom....remember what you did to dad?
i am not getting into that.
they all think me and Matt-bf have sex....WHY do people always go straight to 'OMFG, SEX THEY ARE DOING IT, they have to be, they love each other.'
the reason i love matt so much is that he doesnt believe until sex until marriage anyway, and he respects me and i respect him.
I guess we just have to hold on.
His rents wants him to get a job near there house, which is an hour away from me, so that Matt can see me. but he wants to live in the town closer to me, cuz he is going to move to the town closer to me.
ugh idk i just want him away from his rents, I am sick of the screming and yelling we both get.
RENTS
they drive me nuts. my bf's rents....oh ps....
[Rents=Parents, for those of you who cant put two and two together!]
Anyway, My bf needs to move out of his house, his rents beat and yell at him like no tomorrow. at first my rents said they dont have a problem with it, now of course my mom is a bitch and is like no.
i want to kill something so bad, i am hurt beyond hurt.
my mother said she doesn't trust me. i wouldn't be talking mom....remember what you did to dad?
i am not getting into that.
they all think me and Matt-bf have sex....WHY do people always go straight to 'OMFG, SEX THEY ARE DOING IT, they have to be, they love each other.'
the reason i love matt so much is that he doesnt believe until sex until marriage anyway, and he respects me and i respect him.
I guess we just have to hold on.
His rents wants him to get a job near there house, which is an hour away from me, so that Matt can see me. but he wants to live in the town closer to me, cuz he is going to move to the town closer to me.
ugh idk i just want him away from his rents, I am sick of the screming and yelling we both get.
so last Friday i got a needle pushed though my belly button. yup it hurt like a bitch but i am a hard ass and made my blood sugar dropped. then of course right after i went to a Concert! i got my belly hit a lot, but i liked the feeling. i really want Snake bits, but i dont think i have the balls to do it. =(
Prom was over the weekend too! it was fun, i got all pretty.
XD I HAD A CROWN!
yup i felt cool.
ugh gay i am really sleepy and my hair looks like shit.
yes i talk about my hair a lot.
Vitamin Water is amazing.
i am going to go eat lunch.
Prom was over the weekend too! it was fun, i got all pretty.
XD I HAD A CROWN!
yup i felt cool.
ugh gay i am really sleepy and my hair looks like shit.
yes i talk about my hair a lot.
Vitamin Water is amazing.
i am going to go eat lunch.
School is getting annoying. i hate everyone in my school, no one knows how to walk down a hall way, stupid Freshmen walk in bloody lines. i really don't care if i was a Frenchmen before, they just get stupider each year.
On top of that i need to find a job. this is completely off topic, but Iron Man is the SHIT! ^^
a lot of the people at my school are fakes. they think that they are all tough asses or all stuck up whores. some of the girls think that they are Bi...cuz i am Bi. i have been for 12 years.
i just want to get out for summer vac. i just am getting really sick of them.
ok i am done with bitching about them!
Prom is this weekend, it is going to be fun! i am freaking out about getting all my homework done.
ugh my friends are looking at these sick scares, it is making me sick but i cant look away. XD
oh wow i can feel the lunch food, gr i am a really hungry.
On top of that i need to find a job. this is completely off topic, but Iron Man is the SHIT! ^^
a lot of the people at my school are fakes. they think that they are all tough asses or all stuck up whores. some of the girls think that they are Bi...cuz i am Bi. i have been for 12 years.
i just want to get out for summer vac. i just am getting really sick of them.
ok i am done with bitching about them!
Prom is this weekend, it is going to be fun! i am freaking out about getting all my homework done.
ugh my friends are looking at these sick scares, it is making me sick but i cant look away. XD
oh wow i can feel the lunch food, gr i am a really hungry.
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poopso hi
my life is a little boring...no one is going to read these....no one ever reads things i produce on the internet. so i guess i am making this just to let shit go, cuz everyone like reading about everyone elses problems, when they have their own problems anyway.....
well i guess you should get to know me.....
I am weird, my name is paige and i dont like it...idk why.
I am blunt, i hate alot of things and think alot of things are stupid. i hate sterotypes so keep them away from me. i like all different types of music, hardcore, rock, tencho, indie, and jpop. I am really in to Photography, writing, and just having fun. I am a fun person when you get to know me. i think Rap is gross, and people who act black and are white are just posers and losers [Come on people get a life]
i dont like religion too much, but i am Wiccan. it just causes stupid pointless fights. i dont like the government...they hide too much from everyone, and dont give a shit anymore.
I dont drink, or do drugs, again i think are pointless and stupid. i am not going to lie, i have tried drinking, and pot....ill never touch it again.
I am every open about alot of things. just ask me and ill tell you.
I like talking about sex, though i have never had it, and proud of it.
I have MSN, and shitspace, just ask for it.
I have an Amazing boyfriend.
I love life...just hate the shity parts.
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